I think about you.
I really do.
In my head, you are a much more demanding audience then you are in real life and I spend my driving time thinking of what I am going to say next, especially on weeks like this one when I am feeling uninspired.
Most weeks, I have it all planned out. I know exactly what is coming up and I am excited about everything. But this week has not been an exciting week. Heck, it hasn’t even been a good week. And it hasn’t been the type of week that you plan out. It has been more like type of week when you go to the dentist for a referral for wisdom teeth surgery and he charges you $100 to tell you there is a bigger, more expensive issue that needs to be takencareofRIGHTNOW. And then you can get your wisdom teeth out. Not that this happened to me or anything…
I hate not being in control. I find it so ironic that last Sunday, someone stuck a video camera in my face and asked what my greatest fear was [long story] and I confidently said “Being out of control.” And then I had one of the most out of control weeks I have had in a long time.
I was going to talk to you about something else today, but part of fitness is knowing when NOT to work out.
When to take a bit of time to dust off your grumpiness, your frustration, or your weariness.
I am not great at that. So what do I do when I feel out of control and as if no matter which direction I turn, I am running against the grain?
I call Jesse.
I call a friend who has the right answer for everything. [Even if she moved to Alberta on me..]
I do something I KNOW I can’t mess up that much and if I do, it doesn’t matter, like cooking or cleaning.
I do something that focuses on someone else – like volunteering or just going to work, even if it is with a little dark cloud over my head.
I hug my mom.
And sometimes, she will look at me and say “Jessica, if you were 4 years old, I would put you down for a nap”.
So I go and sleep for a while.
Come to me all who are weary, and I will give you rest. Matt 11:28
What do you do when life throws you a curveball?