It was early last Saturday morning and I breezed downstairs to head out for the day. I walked through the kitchen on the way to pour myself a cup of coffee and saw my youngest sister sitting alone at the table, picking at cold egg whites and a couple of blueberries and calling it a… Read More…
Jolene
Last night, my mother gave one of her presentations of our family’s journey through anorexia to a local group of women. This is a noteworthy event because I breezed in to watch the presentation after teaching a spin class, only to realize that the presentation was over and my mother had decided to call my… Read More…
Christmas With Anorexia
I had a post all drafted up for today, but I threw it out the window in lieu of something else much more important. Christmas seems to be a loaded time for many things; our tables are laden with wonderful food and our week is saturated with family events. It is a happy time. We… Read More…
More than you will ever know
We have someone in our family who is just..awkward. We want him to leave and we have told him this, but he follows us everywhere. We tried to leave him in the mountains of Utah, but he slipped inside a small corner and followed us home. He makes us cry in public places. He makes relationships really… Read More…
Extraordinary People
Only an extra ordinary person can get an eating disorder. Because it takes extraordinary strength to fight one. It is National Eating Disorder Awareness Week. Remind the people in your life that you love them and that they are of irreplaceable value. If you want to tangibly support NEDA, consider buying a pair of mittens… Read More…
Jar of Hearts
Christmas dredges up a lot of different feelings for me and I have to say I am relieved. For a very long time, I have not felt much regarding Jolene; people ask how I am doing and the answer is fine. I am not lying. I am. I have had this discussion often with my… Read More…
Jolene
In the middle of the night, I heard the muffled sounds of my family getting ready and at 3 am, I heard the door slam with a note of finality. Jolene is leaving us again. She is strong, but anorexia was stronger this time. My parents are boarding another plane to take her back to the… Read More…
Changing synonyms
This semester, it is safe to say I have had one of the worst experiences with a professor in my entire university career. I won’t bore you with details, but let’s just say I was already searching for synonyms of “abysmal” for course evaluation. But that all changed today. I have crumpled up and thrown… Read More…
This is your life.
This week, my sister flew out to Utah to an anorexic treatment centre and obviously the topic is weighing heavily on my mind. I realise it is different from the normal tone of the blog, but eating disorders are a reality everywhere – even for runners. I wish that I could sit down with everyone… Read More…
